Does my insecurity have no end? Will I ever stop embarrassing myself and annoying others by putting myself down? Is there some drug I can take to make myself stop?

Well the weather has been pretty odd. Saturday I could have sworn it was at least 90 degrees, which is pretty goofy for October. I biked to the grocery store in shorts and a tank top and was still burning up. By Tuesday I was wearing my Eskimo coat. :P I should take a picture of how fuzzy that thing is. I don't know if the temperature normally changes so rapidly in other parts of the country. I think it's an ND peculiarity. My parents like to tell me how one time shortly after they moved here, we had the lowest temperature in the country one day and the highest in the country the next. Not to mention we had baseball sized hail a few weeks ago so I get to deal with the wonders of insurance agents and roofers...


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Lori Lancaster | October 12, 2007
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Scott Hardie | October 13, 2007
Last weekend, I read a humorous autobiography by a California woman who grew up obsessive-compulsive and Orthodox Jew, one hell of a combination. If you'll forgive me, she reminded me of you in the ways that she overcompensated for her social insecurity by putting herself down all the time, and in her years-long struggle with depression and self-doubt. It's not a particularly good book, but it might be worth reading to find out how much you see yourself in it, if at all. (link)

Amy Austin | October 13, 2007
And... leave it to me to be in enough of a state of wonder to comment only on the baseball-sized hail... ("REALLY?!?!? I've never seen bigger than marble-sized myself!")

Jackie Mason | October 13, 2007
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Denise Sawicki | October 14, 2007
Hmm thanks everyone. I thought these comments would be about the weather :). Lori: my husband claims I'm already good at everything... Scott: Sounds interesting, I will certainly check it out if it's at the local library. Amy: Yes a few of the hailstones were that big. No catastrophic damage, luckily, the shingles just look a bit loose. Jackie: Thanks, I think I look alright but in truth I'm not all that small, I wear size 14 jeans, which is well into the plus-sized model category for whatever reason. I hear plus-sized models start at size 8, which is totally ridiculous, but yeah... I am still big enough to obsess about being too big if I were so inclined which I'm not... I don't weigh much for my height but I've got no muscle tone...


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