If you haven't seen Dead Alive, the title makes no sense. If you have, you're awesome, and I love you, but in a total non-sexual, non-gay sort of way. There is a short clip in the Best Horror Weapons of Steve West's post, which is ironic, because I was thinking of putting it in the New Game thread (where you guess movies...haven't you gone there yet?!), but now I won't. I'm still hurting from Midnight Madness getting figured out so easily (and did you read the flippant here's-every-important-detail response I got from Steve West?! OK, you know it! You don't have to rub my face in it!!!).

Well, I think I managed to get back into the GOO game...or at least I should make the playoffs. I kind of lost touch with it for a couple weeks. Well, honestly, I took myself out for one GOO, because it was unscrambled when I looked at it on the main page, and I didn't feel right taking advantage, then I felt like a loser, because other people had guessed it before Scott fixed it, so I felt like they were taking advantage, and I shouldn't be such a wuss about it, since it's not life and death of anything, and then I was mad at those people who guessed, then I realized they probably didn't even notice, and I felt bad about being upset about it, and now here we are in the longest sentence in Exquisite Corpse history (or not, and I don't care if it is or isn't). Bottom line: I'm in and that's that.

And I've been thinking about religion a lot lately. I've not been exactly shopping for a new one, but I'm thinking about where I am, where I want to be, and what I think would enjoy in a religion. I won't really speak about it, because 1) it's kind of personal (not that it's stopped me before, true), 2) I'd hate to say something negative about someone's religion (not that I wouldn't truly mean what I say my opinion is, but I don't want to be rude or misinformed and "diss" someone), and 3) one of the "biggie's", to me, is finding it for myself, not being told where to look. I think this should be a journey I take on my own, and the destination might be right where I started, but I think (like all good journeys) getting there is most of the fun!

Deep thoughts tonight. Deep thoughts most nights, but I don't always get them in here. I've had great thoughts that I've wanted to put out here, but I usually don't, for one reason or another.

I have brought no one to the GOO game (or any other part of goo.tc). I don't know anyone to invite. My friend list is pretty skimpy on people I actually know, it's mostly friend of a friend (which makes sense...you can't possibly know more people than the people you know combined) or whatever. I do feel kind of weird about it. Seems like everyone but me has brought someone else in. I don't know anyone.

The string on my necklace is falling off. :( It's really nice. It's a mitsutomoe (or mitsudomoe or fire wheel depending on who's naming it). I could describe it, but Googling it is faster for you, and the added benefit is you don't have to try to figure out what I'm trying to convey. I don't remember where I got it from. One of those new age hippie places (yeah, I'm painting with a broad brush..whatever) that I found on-line. I can't find it anymore. I wonder if it's gone out of business. I did see one that was a Maori (native New Zealanders) bone carving that would be wicked to have, but it's way too much money. My wife works with an awesomely sweet girl from NZ, so maybe if I see her again (she comes in and out of the US from time to time) I'll have her look and see if she can find one cheap. It's a long shot, though.

Song of the Day: "Blondes in Black Cars" by Autograph. I remember them from their more popular hit "Turn Up The Radio", but I saw this video on VH1 Classic. Wow. That's all I can say. I don't know if it's on YouTube (follow up" Oh hell yeah it is!), but if so, you might as well go see glam metal at its worst!

Well, this might be one of the more rambling posts I've had for a while. I'll finish it up with random song lyrics in my head until House M.D. comes on. These lyrics don't necessarily mean anything (but I'm no psychoanalyst), but I guess since they are what's popping into my head, maybe they do. If you want, you all can play a game where you see how many of them sound familiar! Or not.

Which of us is now in exile
Which in need of amnesty
Are you now but an illusion
In my mind alone you breathe

I'm on the lame train
I've got a first class ticket on the non-stop to nowhere

The soldier came knocking upon the Queen's door
He said I am not fighting for you anymore

Hey hey baby
Tell me what's your name
From the way you look
And the way you dress
I can tell you ain't got no shame
And that's all right

you don't know
how you move me
deconstruct me
and consume me
i'm all used up
i'm out of luck
i am starstruck
by something in your eyes
that is keeping my hopes alive

Grey would be the color
If I had a heart

Baby I've been here before
I've seen this room and I've walked this floor
I used to live alone before I knew you
And I see your flag on that marble arch
Your love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah

*I can't believe I'm not watching House M.D.!! :(*

It's not a habit
It's cool
I feel alive
If you don't have it
You're on the other side
I'm not an addict
Maybe that's a lie

Don't call me at work again
Oh no the boss still hates me
I'm just tired and I don't love you anymore
And there's a restaurant we should check out
Where the other nightmare people like to go
I mean nice people
Baby wait
I didn't mean to say nightmare

You're the Fool
You're Juggler
Hangman and Lover
You're like no other
(Take a look into my eyes)
Tell me what you see
(Take a look into my eyes)
Tell me is true
(Take a look into my eyes)
When I look at you
(Take a look into my eyes)
Tell me is it me
Is it really me

i know your life is empty
and you hate to face this world alone
so you're looking for an angel
someone who can make you whole
i can not save you
i can't even save myself
so just save yourself

oh i really should have known
by the time you drove me home
by the vagueness in your eyes
your casual goodbyes
by the chill in your embrace
the expression on your face
that told me
maybe you might have some advice to give
on how to be

They're not your words but you're reciting the lines
You don't mean a thing but you exist in their minds
How does it feel when they have turned out the lights
Because you know they sooner would get rid of you
than fight

Fifteen minutes later
You don't seem so famous
The arms that raised you overhead
Take you to your grave instead

And at the end (finally, right?) The entire song "I am (I'm me)" by Twisted Sister. Yeah, the whole f*cking thing.

I'm out of here. Damn, what a waste of space...

UPDATE: The string broke in the shower this morning... :(

Eight Replies to 4-III-2008 or I Kick Ass For The Lord!

Steve West | March 5, 2008
Sorry to seem flippant. It's an odd movie that I enjoyed and was sorta bonding with someone else who might have enjoyed it or at least remembered enough details to contribute it to the game. Couldn't resist answering - maybe should have seen if anyone else saw it and kinda liked it.

Aaron Shurtleff | March 5, 2008
I'm just giving you a hard time. I was honestly impressed that you not only knew it, but you knew that much about it! And I was definately an enjoyed it! I wanted to do a scavenger hunt for so long... *sigh*

Steve West | March 5, 2008
Cool. I was very pleasantly reminiscing about it since your post. Thanks!

Lori Lancaster | March 5, 2008
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Aaron Shurtleff | March 5, 2008
You shouldn't have gone to see "Blondes in Black Cars", I guess. My apologies for suggesting it! :)

But, no, was it too much? It was. I was sick and in a weird mood. Still am.

Lori Lancaster | March 5, 2008
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Scott Hardie | March 7, 2008
Love the title.

You have brought yourself to the site, and that is enough to make me very grateful. :-)

Kris Weberg | March 13, 2008
"What we need is a war!"

I love Brain Dead/Dead Alive and thank you for having seen it.


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